Embrace Your Story and Enjoy Your Journey!

 



"Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God's work from beginning to end. So I concluded there is nothing better than to be happy and enjoy ourselves as long as we can." Ecclesiastes 3:11-12 NLT

 

Years ago I would have been embarrassed to say this but it is my job to be transparent with my readers. I am a 25 year old single mother living in the master bedroom of my parent's home that I share with my two boys(pictured above). When I was younger, I saw myself married, working at my dream job, traveling the world, and being pregnant with my first child by my mid twenties. No where in my fantasy world did I see myself moving back home after a failed relationship and co-parenting with someone who lives 20 hours away. If I was the author of my story I would have written it a lot differently but I'm thankful for how things played out. I am now able to see The Lord's hand over my life every step of the way.

 

It was my senior year of college when I found out that I was pregnant with my first son. I walked across the stage seven months pregnant looking drop dead gorgeous in my 6-inch wedges. I just knew I had it all together. Immediately after graduation I moved in with my children's father and we began to "play house". A few months after the move, conviction set in, and I heard The Lord's voice loud and clear. God demanded that I move back home and end my ungodly cohabitation situation. I was hesitant at first because I was so infatuated with this earthly man. (Remember our God is a jealous God and He refuses to take second place). So everything that could go wrong did which forced me to move back home.

 

Coming home was good for us because the church embraced me and my son with open arms. I tried very hard to live holistically and give my all to Christ. I enjoyed church and Bible study and my old self was slowly passing away. The only thing still present was my love for my child's father. The baby and I would travel out of town to see him as often as we could and that's when I fell again. I immediately surrendered to God after finding out that I was pregnant with my second son. Yes, that meant completely dying to my flesh. NO sex, NO kissing, and NO touching! My mind, body, and spirit was a temple and I refused to let that enemy have any control over my destiny.

 

Giving myself fully over to Christ was the best decision that I've ever made. I spent countless nights crying out to God "why me?" but now I say "why not me?" God showed me just how real His grace was and I am beyond thankful. My relationship with Him has been taken to another level. The intimacy that I have found with Him no earthly man can fill. He really changed me from the inside out and now He is using me to help others. The Lord has allowed me to speak to groups of women on living holistically and dying to our flesh. He continues to put me in the paths of other single mothers which gives me the opportunity to tell my story and brag on my God. Being able to write for 95.5 FM The Fish's Mom Squad was a God given opportunity. My test allowed me to have a triumphant testimony which now blesses others. If God did it for me, He can do the same for you! 

 

Mothers, let's join together and decide that we are trusting God to be the author and the finisher of our life's story. Let's allow Him to turn our mess into a message and our trials into our testimony. When we stumble and fall, know that He is waiting right there to pick us up and take us to a higher place with Him. He desires to use us to bless others. No more complaining about what could have been. Instead trust God's beautiful timing and plan. I can proudly stand and say that I AM CONTENT, I EMBRACE MY STORY, AND I AM ENJOYING MY JOURNEY! Be blessed women of God!