Will I Ever be Good Enough?

"The Lord will fulfill His purpose for me; your steadfast love, O Lord, endures forever. Do not forsake the work of your hands."

Psalm 138:8 ESV

Just this past weekend, I allowed myself to run empty. BAD DECISION! From Friday to Sunday, I slept a total of six hours. Call me crazy but I cared more about attending events where I could fellowship with my family and friends over resting and taking care of myself. To top it off I chose to take my children to three different birthday parties that were of course on opposite sides of town. Since I'm supermom, I made it my duty to show up to every party with a gift in hand.

Exhausted after attending church with only three hours of sleep, I began to head to my first location in Twinsburg. My boys were so excited because the party was located at an outdoor park. The party started at 3pm and I allowed them to play for 45 minutes. We then gathered our belongings and headed to the Westside of Cleveland for the Jake and the Neverland Pirates party. Our arrival time was 4:22pm. Once there, the boys ran around with play swords and pirate hats. After spending an hour at this party we headed to Middleburg Heights for a swimming party. Now at our final destination, with 15 minutes remaining we were only able to enjoy the candy bar and leftover cupcakes. I didn't complain but the boys were pretty down about not being able to swim.

As I loaded up the car with a smile on my face, the boys seemed to oppose my excitement. So I asked, "didn't you guys have fun today?" My four year old responded, "no because we weren't able to go swimming." I sat back in my seat in awe of my son's response. Did he not just see that we attended three parties, in three hours, with mommy only getting three hours of sleep? Was he not grateful for the bags full of candy that he received from the different parties? When will he see and understand the sacrifices that mommy makes just to keep them happy? Will I ever be good enough?

I continued our drive home in silence after being shut down by my son. I just needed that thirty minute drive to be filled with kind words from my Father in Heaven. He assured me that my sacrifices were not in vain. He also reminded me that He will fulfill His purposes for me and that His love for me endures forever. Even when my children don't agree, my God calls me good enough. I chose to rest in the fact that I was handpicked by Christ to raise my children and with His help I am good enough.

Moms I want to encourage you today and remind you that you are good enough. You are valuable and appreciated. Your children and husband need you to survive. The Lord marvels at the goodness that He created in you. You are fearfully and wonderfully made. You are the head and not the tail. You are above and not beneath. YOU ARE LOVED AND YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH!

Have a blessed weekend!